Tuesday, August 24, 2010

last night.

last night i had the marvelous opportunity to come together with some brothers and sisters in Christ and pray over the people within the city of auburn.

we met in the sun room a house downtown and sat around just expressing our hearts and what the Lord was doing in our lives and what we were struggling/ dealing with. it was awesome. the only word that i could come up with right now is awesome. i have read many books, heard many stories, had many conversations, and the only word i can come up with to describe what happened last night is "awesome." Truly.

the Lord is going to meet us. we are expecting it, we are planning and preparing for it. where two or more are gathered in His name, there He will be!

as you all know, i read "jesus calling" everyday. and every single day, it is perfectly appropriate for my life, and weirdly enough, the lives of those around me.

here is today's message, and after last night, it could not be more perfectly suited for me to hear.

I am all around you, hovering over you
even as you seek My face.
I am nearer that you dare believe, closer than the air you breathe.
if My children could only recognize My Presence,
they would never feel lonely again.
My Presence impinges on your innermost being.
can you see the absurdity of trying to hide anything from Me?
you can easily deceive other people, and
even yourself.
but i read you like an open, large-print book.

deep within themselves, most people have some awareness
of My imminent Presence.
many people run from Me and vehemently deny My existence,
because my closeness terrifies them.
By MY own children have nothing to fear,
for I have cleansed them by My blood and clothed them in My
be blessed by My intimate nearness.
since I live in you, let Me also live THROUGH you,
SHINING MY LIGHT into the darkness.

my God is so amazing. so awesome.

i am so full right now, i am beaming.

thank you Jesus, thank you for loving me, for finding me.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

my word.

i am sitting in the candle lit apartment i now call home. my roommates just escaped into their beds and i, the narcoleptic, can not sleep. so, my blog was screaming my name, calling me to dig and pour. when harry met sally is playing via tivo, and the tyler candle company candle is burning brightly on the chest/ottoman/ coffee table. i am enjoying this sweet moment of alone time, and my mind has been ticking all night. it is amazing the release that you find when writing. it is therapy.

we went to a movie tonight called Eat, Pray, Love. julia roberts stars as liz, a painfully attractive woman in the middle age span of life who desperately searches for balance and peace. it is a seemingly "cute" movie, but the depth of the content honestly threw me for a loop. it is safe to say that i now want to be liz. and it is a fact that i am now obsessed with the movie.

i want to see, taste, and soak up the world around me. the cultures, the people, the language. gosh, that movie made me want to pack a bag and get on an airplane tomorrow morning and never come back. ever. there was something so moving and powerful about watching this woman , successful and seemingly happy, take a chance and go. she went to find herself. i want to find something a little different, but something is out there to be found.

through the movie liz finds words for the people she encounters. the movie is a picture of the journey to find the word for herself. i know what i want my word to be. not "what i do, but who i am." i know my identity is found in Christ. i want to be found as Him. i just thought that was a neat parallel.

but i know i will travel again. i know i will be back in africa. scenes of bali brought back memories of kampala. i want to ride in my taxi to my little french restaurants at night after a long day in the village. i want to share to gospel with people who have never heard. oh but the Lord is telling me to wait. grow where i am planted. i am. i am trusting and being patient.

well. a sudden spell of sleepiness just overcame me. i think i am going to call it a night and save more of my spillage for another day.

remember to eat. pray. and love. but love is most important:)

Wednesday, August 18, 2010


there are so many things to update.

so many in fact i am not even sure where to being. i cannot think of a way to gingerly move into all the things that i have been doing, or that have been happening in my life. this is my own fault. i do know that. i have let this blog go, and all my avid readers (yes all three of you), have been so poorly abandoned. which i apologize for from the deepest parts of my heart.

so to begin my update on my life we will begin with living arrangements. i am moved in and almost all the way settled into the apartment. it has been so great having my own place to live and breathe. i not only have my own room, but i have my own bathroom as well. it is a great feeling, being able to call this place home (well home when i am not talking to mom and dad). it is looking more and more like a home. we just started a cross wall and are eager to add to it.

i have escaped teen pregnancy. that is right. i am now twenty years old, and an no longer in danger of becoming a teen mom. now when i have kids, i wont be a statistic. awesome.

also. finally, after a year of making promises about a half marathon, i am seriously doing one. thanksgiving day in atlanta. my uncle and i are going to do it together because we will be celebrating in atlanta this year, and it just seemed like the right thing to do. i am excited. today, sara and i ran for 30 minutes and covered 3.42 miles, which is a 8'50 pace. which is not bad considering the fact that i ran for all of about fifteen mins in the past two or so weeks. i am excited about getting back into running shape.

i started junior year today. it is very strange that i have been in auburn for three years. i was thinking about all the people i know and have met over the three year span. it is a lot of people. and a lot of memories. i am really looking forward to learning more this year and making more memories.

once again i am being reminded that i am supposed to grow where i am planted. tonight, we went to laredo's (our favored mexican restaurant) and i noticed this family that sat next to our table. oddly enough, i had seen the woman and her three small children at sam's club the previous afternoon. which i thought was sorta ironic for them to be sitting next to us.


after they finished eating and we were just talking around the table, i felt someone tap me on the shoulder. the woman was standing there with one of her sons and she asked me if i sang at cornerstone. she proceeded to explain that her daughter recognized me and she wanted to come tell me that i had blessed her with my singing. and that they were impacted by the worship we do at cornerstone.

i cannot tell you what an amazing moment that was for me. i don't know. she fact that someone was impacted by me just worshiping is so awesome. our God is amazing. He puts us just where we need to be at the right time. God has placed me in cornerstone for a reason, and that was made even more evident to me through that moment at laredo's.

my brain hurts. i want to tell so much on this blog tonight, however i am lacking in creativity and whit. i am embarrassed because i have such a lack for clever words and storied. they will come with time, but right now i am just struggling. i need inspiration.


i am taking my camera out to baby-sit with me tomorrow. i want to share ella with you. she is an angel.

with that i think i may go on to sleep. i have been slacking on the blog. and i apologize. deeply. but i do promise better blogs to come.

you can count on that.

Friday, August 6, 2010

four letter words.

wednesday we moved into the apartment for good. it looks awesome. we still have some work to do but it is going to look fantastic.

we started pre-rush yesterday afternoon. it used to be a "four letter word" in our vocabulary. but this year we decided to make the best out of it. so it will go faster and be more enjoyable for sure!

today i was reading my devotional while getting dressed for the morning and i read this verse. and i wanted to share it before i got started on my day!

Habakukk 3.18-19
yet i will rejoice in the Lord
I will take joy in the Lord of my salvation
God, the Lord, is my salvation
God, the Lord, is my strength;
he makes my feet like deer's
he makes me tread on my high places.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

yes mam.

well. it's been a while.

so much stuff has been going on this month from weddings and celebrations of weddings, birthdays, balls, moving out, not really moving in, vacations, lots and lots of driving and school and nannying. this list could continue for quite some time.

but i have not blogged any of it. i wanted to take a little break from blog world. but now, sitting on the floor of my empty apartment, i felt the need.

this weekend my heart was overflowing with emotions. fears and apprehensive thoughts flooded my mind most of the time. i moved out of 36 completely and partially moved some things into 6305. it is exciting, but at the same time makes me nervous.
this semester is going to be different. different roommates (who i am so glad to be living with), different place to live, different friends to make, just a whole lot of different. i am excited, but a little nervous to see what the fall will bring.

but there were also emotions of joy and delight that only came from the Lord. cornerstone church was amazing on sunday. we are studying the attributes of God {based on the book by Tozer} and i cannot explain how excited this makes me. we are really digging deep into who God is, and although we will never fully comprehend Him, it is fascinating to watch His love unfold through these studies.

obviously all my followers know the passion i have for worship and that the Lord has instilled inside of me a great eagerness to share that passion for Him through music. another different thing about this semester is going to be helping lead worship for a small group. i have been praying for the past semester that the Lord would show my where i needed to plant my time and energy. that i could be used in a way that would glorify Him over all else. that i could use my talents and bless others at the same time.

my prayers we answered when i was asked to join this awesome group of lead worshipers on a journey to bring auburn students closer to the Lord. i know that the Lord planted me here in auburn for a reason, and this is part of His plan coming to fruition. i am beaming with eagerness to see where and what the Lord is going to being through this ministry. i have hear the greatest things, and an blessed to become a part of it.


oh i'm running to your arms
i'm running to your arms
the riches of YOUR love
will always be enough!
nothing compares to Your embrace
light of the World