fratagonia.

although i do not own the newest version of the patagonia fleece pull over, i do like it. i see one every single day as i walk down the concourse to class. there is a wide variety of colors ranging from Texas burnt orange to a vintage light blue. my personal favorite is the burnt orange. frances owns one and i wear it often and with that comes the joy and excitement of feeling part of the crowd. apparently patagonia is fratty. and as i was walking down the street in front of magnolia hall i was told that the warm fleece pull over i was currently clothing myself was indeed called a fratagonia. i laughed.

it is so true.

it has been a little hard for me to blog this past week. there have been some little things going on here and there, and some interesting things have occurred in my life. yet, i have not found something that truly made me want to blog. eh. in a rut i guess. so i am resorting to a story. you can judge the amount of humor you will. i think it is quite silly.

so i am running in a half marathon right? and so i do alot of running in order to train myself to be ready. i like the collisium. i know how far a mile is, the forces of nature cannot exactly reckon with me, and i can think as i run in circles. a majority of the time i am relatively alone. there may be a few older people walking around or some other joggers, but normally i get to run alone.

however, today was a slightly different story. it was tornado worthy weather when i chose to go out to run. consequently there were going to be more people in the collisium. but when i opened the door and heard a cadence being shouted and then about twenty some odd people sprint by me, i did not feel motivated to continue forward. it was awkward. so i managed to walk into the inner track to run. where, thank you army, marine, whatevers, there were many other people feeling the same frustration as i. not to mention the fact that at that moment, my right leg felt as though you had borrowed a major piece of my quad and decided not to return it.

needless to say the run was not enjoyed by any. frustration only motivated me to run about 2 miles and then do the stairs. leg throbbing i might add. and because of this, my run for tomorrow is now going to be a lovely 8 m i l e run. yes. terrific.

but oh well. i am going to finish something i started. i am running towards the finish line. getting closer with each step. [metaphorically and literally speaking]

again

interesting how thing happen again. fascinating how things begin again. i'm doing it again. i said it was the end, but here it goes again. i find there is a pattern to my life. i seem to try to suppress things, try to ignore things, and yet, they creep on me and grow inside into something massive. something hiding inside that at any given moment in time, can explode. causing immense amounts of shock.

however, i am learning that this is not always a bad thing. maybe i should pay attention to this. maybe it should consider that it is coming for a reason. i love learning new things.

i listen to pandora while i write. it's this amazing little website where you listen to music you want to. and it's free. one of the greatest things i use. currently on pandora, empire state of mind. greatest song eva.

tonight, i spent some time in montgomery at cafe louisa with two of my absolute best friends. honestly, the Lord made these two precious creatures just for me to be friends with. they are the people that i can cry to, run to, hide with, and share my heart. there are so many instances when i think back on the kind of friends i would pray to God for. i remember crying in junior high school, asking my mother why i didn't have a best friend. now, i have many, but two in particular that have challenged and helped me find my way along my walk with the Lord. cannot explain my thankfulness. my heart if full, and my joy overflows.

john legend just came on my pandora. just melt my heart.

but i have great expectations for this semester. i am working hard and trying my best to glorify my God in everything i do. i am praying that i will not act weird around the people i care about most and show them how much i really care. affection. words. whatever it takes. show who you love that you do. and show them today. you may not have tomorrow.

that got morbid really fast. but needless to say it is necessary. so get out there and tell people. spread the love

finish line

i am running in a half marathon with my uncle. over christmas eve dinner, we decided that we would do it. i went online and found one in the greater atlanta area in march that looked pleasing.

my uncle and i have been training since christmas and let me tell you it has been a joy. mk decided to run it as well and we have both been working hard on getting in shape and everything for it. it has been a long road, but we are half way there!

the half marathon is called the snickers energy bar half marathon in rome, ga. i find it slightly ironic that we are running in a candy bar [although it is an energy bar] half marathon. kinda made me laugh inside.

classes have been going well and i enjoy the teachers i have. although it has only been two days worth of class, i think the semester is going to be a good one. i am looking forward to the wonderful experiences coming my way.

i am looking forward to crossing that finish line on the day of my half marathon. it will feel fantastic knowing that i have worked hard to reach a goal, and then achieving that goal. there is something to invigorating about that. only six more weeks.

pressing onward, towards the goal

learning to whistle

welcome year 2010

new years eve was a blast.

literally.

we were in tampa at the Bullard residence and we got to shoot off fireworks and other things that keep pyros entertained. i decided that trip was what college would be like without school.

it was great.

as of late, seeing that it is the new year, there have been many magazine articles containing information that will help us in the new year. stuff about loosing weight (shocking), leaving things behind, and my all time favorite "turning over a NEW YOU in the NEW YEAR". "re invent yourself". goodness.

but in my own life there some things that are going to remain in 2009. i talked previously about holes that seemed to be ripping in my heart. i was under the impression that i was missing something, that i needed this in my life. was i ever wrong.

so i am leaving those holes in 2009. and it is the best decision i have ever made. the Lord is so faithful. he promises to heal our hurts, to hold onto our hands, pick up the pieces that fall apart and mend them together again. sometimes we get arrogant, we think we are capable of taking care of ourselves. for whatever reason, we forget that we are not able to do so. we cannot do it alone.

the greatest part: we don't have to.

sunday morning i awoke to the sound of my alarm pleasantly ringing on my cell phone. at 6:25. beautiful.

i dressed for church and began to bundle for the expected freezing temperatures awaiting me outside. as a opened the door from magnolia hall and proceeded into the open air. it was still. and it was silent.

there are very few times in auburn that the air is not filled with cheering fans, over zealous girls, drunken groups of people, passing cars, and the occasional train.

however,

sunday morning was ever so still. if the weather had been in better taste, i would have stayed out and listened a little longer. i think, in all of his wonder and power and might, when he could be louder than anything we could imagine, God speaks through silence.

he whispers to us. to make sure we are listening.

he shows us a glimpse of his wonder.

in stillness.

well 2010, here we go.

bustin the block

blockbuster hates me. this fact has been brought to my attention in the past, however tonight it became reality. my brother and i were enjoying a little quality time together and after a fun-filled evening of christmas shopping and filling our bellies with a little mama g's, we headed to our local movie store to rent a movie. after searching for the movie which best fit our mood, little bro decided on little miss sunshine. which, i must add, is one of my all time favorites. i was thoroughly pleased with my brother's decision and we proceeded to check out.

our dear friend tommy behind the counter asked us to grab a different dvd because the one we picked was looking a little "messed up". gladly exchanging the dvd's, paid, and walked out to the car.

arriving home, we began settling into begin this marvelous movie. i was very happy to share such greatness with my little brother. he was also eager to watch. but no. five short minutes into the movie the dvd starts skipping. as with every other time we rent a movie, we opened the player and cleaned the movie off. then did it about four more times. fifth time: we took the movie back. after a process with our friend tommy, we were suggested to change movies. stead and i were both very upset and settled for the breakup. not as good. in the least. oh blockbuster. messing up our evening.

however, when emily came home we watched the entire snl christmas episode on my computer. she did not realize all she was missing in her life until after the show was over. we then proceeded to watch a handful of wonderful other snl skits. fantastic. thank you snl, you made my night one million times better.

white stars. glittery trees.

raise your hand if you are not studying. [[please consider this sentence the action of me raising my hand extremely high. ]]

gosh i am finished with the french language forever. at least the studies of the french language. and at least as i have planned. but, as with all things, they are subject to change. but the moment i turned in that exam was the moment my brain had a little party to itself about the wonderful greatness that it had just accomplished. so grand. you should have been there.

good story. walked into ak's coffee, which i had never been to before, and was pleasantly surprised by extreme awkward silence. i was so alarmed by this lack of noise and conversation i even turned to my friend who i was with and commented. which led to my commenting to the cute little girl behind the counter. she was cute. had a great little outfit on.

if i worked in a coffee shop, my outfit would look like that. no doubt.

my friend and i "adjusted" our voices as i proceeded to pour out very interesting and i am sure fascinating storied about my experiences with doctors lately. after our drinks arrived and we were soaking in the quiet and each other's stories we noticed there was now music playing quietly overhead. later i realized that the real reason there was music playing was because i commented on the awkwardness in the room. thank. you. coffee. girl.

leaving coffee with glitter covering my body was really hilarious. there was this precious little decorative tree on the table that was covered with little gold glitter. lots. of gold. glitter. and because i am a very distracted individual and enjoy playing with things i proceeded to get glitter all over me. as did my friend. i love glittery trees.

africa has been on my heart this week. i've been wearing my black ring with the white stars on it from the market in uganda. i am just praying for guidance. maybe a little sign that i should be where i am. and be doing what i'm doing.

as in all situations in life, my lack of knowledge in some areas is proving to be as good as i thought. which is not really good at all. praying for guidance there too.

so now i am going to run. l o n g. i need it bad. then i'll jump back into the world of rocks and plate tectonics. the world of geology.

better love i see

i don't want to face this valley

i don't want to walk alone

you say that you'll leave to find me

well i am begging you now to come

don't think i could face the morning

my heaviness is on my chest

you say that you'll lift this burden

well i am begging you to bring me rest

so come and find me

in the darkest night of my soul

in the shadow of the valley

i am dying

for you to make me whole

for you to make me whole

i can't keep myself from sinking

from drowning down in all this shame

my throat is worn out from calling for help

and im praying you'll remember my name

i know i can't fight this battle

been surrounded on every side

you say that you will deliver me

well i am praying that you'll restore my life

so come and find me

in the darkest night of my soul

in the shadow of the valley

i am dying

for you to make me whole

for you to make me whole

answer me out of the goodness of love

and your mercy turned to me

i know its you that i've been running from

but i'm seeing that it's you i need

you're all i need

today i was able to look back to my first few blogs and reminisce about the past year. all the things i've seen, all the things i've done, all my new friends, all my old ones. all the things that have changed. it was a meaningful little experience. i began reading about finals last year. my first finals as an eager little freshman. i read about my lack of focus during finals, and that is one thing that has not changed with time.

this time of the school year draws you to your friends, for fear that by some unfortunate circumstance you wont see them until after the break. which, bitter sweet as it may seem, is a whole month long. you also are drawn to those you love because of the season. no, i am not referring to the cold, but to the season of celebration that is approaching. what a fantastic feeling rises in us during the christmas season. gosh i love it.

this week i am singing the first solo of my cornerstone career. we practiced tonight in brians little office which was cool. josh and jon and brian all played acoustic with bj on the djembe. it was close and warm. not only the atmosphere in the room, but the sound was. i love intimate settings as those. you are exposed. you are probably going to make a mistake that they are going to hear. but, that is reality. beautiful, imperfect reality.

in spite of the fact that i have finals breathing down my neck, i am sitting here writing for three people to read. total lack of motivation obviously.

i believe i should return to the world of books and re-memorizing everything i have learned this semester. oh the joy. it is no fun, but it has to be done nonetheless.